So this was the home of my art blog for a bit. But since my hand is acting up with numbness and pain for now, that is sort of on hold for a bit. Still something I do but its hard and not as often. So no point having 2 blogs. So I am merging... Continue Reading →
There is nothing wrong with being positive or working of thinking positive. We can be caught in a net of negative thinking and need to adjust ourselves to more realistic thinking. And there is some research to back that. And that is definitely not what I am talking about. That is a good thing. I... Continue Reading →
With my health setback came self isolation which always happens with me. As a sort of adjustment period. I couldn't walk well of function well for a bit so I isolated. And I didn't feel well before that, so I isolated. Social media "Individuals who are lacking connection in their lives may turn to the... Continue Reading →
Chronic illness and perception of control When you read the the previous post it sounds ideal. Having this resilience and positive coping strategies to fling out with any stressful situation. Dealing with negative emotions. Sounds awesome. But from my experience coping is a process not an endpoint. I am quite aware of one very poignant... Continue Reading →
The perception of control we have is necessary for our well-being and living in the world. It is sort of a necessary fiction we tell ourselves. When you think of it philosophically there isn’t much control we truly have over anything. But perception is reality for our brains. Perceived personal control Perceived personal control is... Continue Reading →
Setbacks when it comes to chronic illness seem to just be inevitable. Sometimes they are not setbacks at all but our new state of the normal. And sometimes they are short setbacks. Other times they are substantial setbacks. A setback with our health can be caused by many things. A medication change, a stressor or... Continue Reading →
I got my lumbar puncture results back and a call from my neurologist. I do in fact have Multiple Sclerosis (MS). This has been after years of abnormal MRIs with lesions but my neurologist insisting I didn't present with MS. Because I have fibromyalgia and chronic migraine- so a lot of overlap in symptoms. And... Continue Reading →
I got a Lumbar Puncture, also known as a spinal tap, on Friday. It is done on the lower back in the lumbar region. It was done as an outpatient. I went in, I didn't even have to change into one of those horrible hospital gowns. They got me to lie on my side with... Continue Reading →
The weirdest thing that happened to me with chronic vertigo is it made me insanely sleepy. I assume because it is draining for the brain to focus that hard through all that dizziness and vertigo. On bad days I could barely move and on good days it was hard to focus on anything. For a... Continue Reading →
It seems like stress is a constant factor in our existence that we cannot banish. It is embedded within the existence of chronic illness and pain. And as a consequence of chronic pain and illness on our lives as well. And those consequences in our lives we have to live with; dealing with doctors, employers,... Continue Reading →
Chronically Nikki 