Okay, so with multiple health conditions sometimes I lose track what I am supposed to be paying attention to. It isn’t just that I have MS on the brain right now- I really do- with treatment right on the go right now.
But my body decided to really, really remind me that fibromyalgia is a thing in my life. By flaring up and blaring all over my damn body Here I AM.
Because I finished my move to my new apartment. I had help and used movers because being disabled means I can’t really handle boxes and all of that. Which makes moving incredibly difficult, by the way.
I had some problems pacing with packing but I did pace. I was sore but I figured, this is manageable. Good job! Ish.
I get here, I think, look at all this empty space. This is not a home yet. I need to fill it with things before I feel like this is my Space. So I started at it. And I felt a bit overwhelmed with the task as my brain always does with these things but I just got at it. And once I did, I Really DID.
I paused once and a while. Took a break here and there. Drank my fluids. This felt sufficient to my brain. Look at me- I seem to sort of be pacing this actual difficult task for me.
Not so much. Not even close. I got tired. But sure, it is tiring. I slept like the dead that night but that makes sense.
Fibromyalgia Flare! BOOM
I get up the next day… and my back is killing me. And I step on the ground… and my feet hate me for even touching the ground a little. Both rotator cuffs really did not want to rotate without screaming. I was tender. I was sore. I was tired.
I barely could manage a thing that day aside from setting up the computer. Yay! But exhausted mentally and physically.
Officially in fibro flare zone. And stayed in it for three lovely days. All because my brain was like I should stop now— oh, look, a box of books needs to be put away! Oh no, that simply cannot wait one more second!
And so I reminded myself quite clearly of my fibromyalgia limit. And hit it. And exceeded it. And still feel it actually. Still feeling it.
And when you are flaring, you just do not want to do a damn thing. Your body doesn’t want to even move. Your brain is like pudding. And man was it ever. Everything shuts down for a bit and forces you to rest. I still have things to do- but rest I will now.
I also didn’t take my usual crash and burn nap, which is normal for me in the afternoon and sometimes evening as well. I figure with both FM and MS it is a given now. But I didn’t. And was hit with vertigo and then a migraine. So maybe that is just a thing I need to do to pace myself. My rest and a nap here and there.
Multiple conditions- Multiple considerations
I can’t simply forget migraine disease- which granted, it will never allow me to forget that one ever. Or fibromyalgia which does mask itself quite sneakily under MS most of the time- aside from flaring and pain that is Not MS related at all. But the fatigue is both. And the fibro fog is mostly FM. But I can’t forget to manage it as I usually do because I am in the process of learning how to manage MS. Which has been a challenge and new and always a process of adaptation. With a new medication that is entirely different process than most medications and then with regular bloodwork for that medication- and check ups. And specialists. And so on and so on.
But I have existing conditions. And I know how to manage them as best I can. I can’t let them go all wild because I am trying to adjust to another one. And this definitely demonstrated that clearly. I would maybe have flared anyway. It is hard to pace and pace and pace when moving. Packing, to moving, to unpacking. But I didn’t help the situation.
Chronically Nikki 
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