Time of rest

After the move into the new apartment and then going back and cleaning the old one I am in full flare mode. I am on a pain killer and I would hate to think how much pain I would be without it. The pain definitely exceeds it.

This means full recovery mode. A lot of rest. No exercising. Really paying attention to triggers. I have been getting a lot of migraine attacks so I have been spending most of the day without the lights on, and that is fine. I do my usual tidying up because I want to keep things clean and neat, but nothing too extensive.

It also means I haven’t really been out and about. So still no real social time. But I really, really need to tame the flare. I get a bit restless when I am still for too long. So I have been doodling and writing. I haven’t really set anything up for art yet. So just doodles.

Migraine attacks

The migraine attacks though make me tired as all hell. And I suppose that is the flare as well. But one thing I know about taking triptan medication is that it knocks me out- but also knocks the migraine out most of the time. Definitely makes me dopey like right into the postdrome (migraine hangover) dummies and also just insanely tired. I usually just need a nap.

When I was working and I would take a triptan, well, half the time it wouldn’t work with all the noise and lights and such but even when it did it would completely dumb down my brain. I would be exhausted and just a mistake waiting to happen. It was so damn frustrating that even the cure itself caused such problems. Then the fact you can only take them twice a week and when I work I get migraine attacks every single day. So that is not cool at all.

When I don’t work and take a good amount of Topamax, with various other things like meditation I still have chronic migraine attacks but not Daily migraine attacks. And that’s a big distinction for me. And not every migraine attack is a mind blowing killer one one Topamax (dopamax) for me now so I don’t take a triptan for every single one.

But with the move it caused a lot of fluctuations with my habits and the weather was a mess as well. So Boom migraine hell. So I have to make sure that settles down. Because it can really, really just get a roll on. Like once it gets going it Gets Going. One leads to another and another and another. So I am being very careful. I had one this morning. And it was a triptan day. Then a long nap. And now I am sitting in the dark hoping it will not hit me again as can happen.

Fibro flaring

It was entirely expected my fibromyalgia would flare from the move. And I hadn’t quite recovered in the week before we did the deep clean. So then it spiked again. So it will take a bit to settled down. It is exceeding my pain medication substantially.

I wonder if I should still do my stretches, if it would help- or hinder at this point. But I think for at least a few days, it might be just too much. Too much pain to handle. I am in grin and bear it mode. Where you can feel pain no matter what position you are in and you just can’t quite get comfortable so you just deal.

The pain is definitely out pacing the fatigue right now. My fatigue isn’t as bad as it has been lately. So I want to do things. And I do them. Insanely slowly. And pacing. And careful how I move. And then regret moving. But I get the things done. But the fatigue is still present because the migraines have been ever so present. So I can’t seem to escape the need for a nap. Like nap attack more like.

So recover

But there are days like these. Weeks like these. It is the way of the flare. And flares happen. In this case, an inevitable flare from a necessary set of tasks. But there are times flares just happen. And we just need to get through to the other side. Tasks got done. Things are moved. I feel good about all that. So there is that.

On a side note, I smell like Tiger Balm at the moment. Its sexy.

See also

Adventures of Moving Apartments